Life will not stop for a life lost

In one phone call, my world came colliding down

“she will miss you” – he said

As a crackle in his voice slipped through the telephone waves

Thousands of miles away

That heartbreak only took a millisecond to deliver

Even at that moment

I felt emptiness

Yet disbelief

There is no way that the fire in her has been distinguished

There is no way that the light in her had gone dark

With closed eyes

And a deep inhale

I cannot explain what I feel inside

The closest person to me is no longer existent on this earth

My best friend is no longer just a phone call away

The only person that made me laugh from my gut is gone

She was the one and

only one

It’s preposterous the way one’s world completely gets turned inside out

Like the universe just reached in and

pulled my last laughter right from my mouth

It’s insane how my world just took a standstill

But nothing around me stopped moving

Life will not stop for a life lost

The world does not stop turning just because mine toppled from its axis

Other people still need me

although I have not much to give

My future calls me

Although all I want is some time to breathe

Responsibilities demand me

Despite the fact that my brain wishes all too much

Just not to think

I still cannot fathom that you are not just spending your days

On the other side of the world

Awake while I slumber

I cannot understand

That I will no longer see you online

And write you just to bother

I will miss the

“hey baby”

To my

“hey mama”

I do not know how to say “goodbye”

Mother

Because the world keeps spinning for me to move forward

But my heart keeps reminding me

That you are no longer moving forward with me

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4 Comments Add yours

  1. Carolyn Federe says:

    I am so sorry for your loss baby girl!
    We love you! I wish I could wipe the sorrow from you but we all haveto grieve and it will be longer when it’s someone we 💕
    Cherish the memories and be happy that you had a good relationship with your mother.
    Keep moving forward and know that you are loved by many,

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    1. Thank you so much ❤️
      It’s hard, but I’m trying

      Like

  2. The V Pub says:

    I’m sorry for your loss. In my experience, the pain never really goes away, but rather it gets muted over time.

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    1. Thank you ❤️ .. it will be a year in April and I still feel the pain just as strong but it comes in waves. Sometimes I feel anger, confusion… disbelief .. but all we can do is keep stepping forward.

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